Monday, September 10, 2007

Kindergarten, Here He Comes!

Well, the day has arrived. My first son just got on the bus a while ago, and is headed to kindergarten. He was ready 40 minutes before we had to wait for the bus (which we need to be at the road 10 minutes early - following me? So, he was ready for the bus 50 minutes before it would come!)

The last year was filled with nervousness and tears (for me - not for him!) and I just had to lay it before the Lord. Amazingly (not really), God has filled me with such peace and joy! I had to stop looking at all I was "losing" and all that he was "gaining"! When I look at school from his eyes, and look at his excitement, it changed the perspective for me. Praise God!

Last week I met his teacher who is a WONDERFUL, KIND, AND LOVING young woman. She is genuinely excited to have our children, and what a blessing that is for me as a first time school mom! She is excited to teach my son how to read, early math, and so forth. The room was so inspiring. I want to go back to school and learn there!

I have a tendency to want to orchestrate and control everything in my children's (and mine, and my husband's, and, and, and...) lives. But even when I feel in "control", I am not one bit. And that is a reality that is hard to accept. This is really the first time that my son will be truly out of my hands. And I can sit here and dwell on the scariness of that, or I can use it as a time to really lean on the Lord, and trust that He loves my children more than I, and that they are safe when I let them go into His hands! That is actually very freeing once you start to really accept that truth.

So the verse I will be working on with my kids to memorize is Hebrews 13:5b - "Never will I (God) leave you; Never will I forsake you." God is with my son (and me, and you), wherever we are. Amen!

Blessings (and I will post pictures of Owen's first day/school bus, etc. this week sometime!)



Stay, stay at home, my heart, and rest;
Home-keeping hearts are happiest,
For those that wander they know not where
Are full of trouble and full of care;
To stay at home is best.

Weary and homesick and distressed,
They wander east, they wander west,
And are baffled and beaten and blown about
By the winds of the wilderness of doubt;
To stay at home is best.

Then stay at home, my heart, and rest;
The bird is safest in its nest;
O'er all that flutter their wings and fly
A hawk is hovering in the sky;
To stay at home is best.
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow