This morning, God spoke to me through my son - my second born, pictured above. The feelings that come along with the third trimester are starting to reveal themselves more and more these days. I still have a few weeks before I'm there, but the tiredness and weariness is hitting me more than it was this summer in that oh so blissful second trimester :)
One area in my home that has needed desperate attention, but to which I've been choosing to ignore was the playroom/basement. You see, in the summer and on nice days, we don't go down there much, and honestly, whatever state it was left in, was the state it has been for many weeks now. Unfortunately I pass it on the way to do laundry, so it called out for my attention nearly every day.
So this morning, I rolled up my sleeves and got to work. In an attempt to not slow down, I asked my son above to build a circle wooden Thomas Train track for his little sister. He was delighted to do it. He is such a wonderful helper, my son.
"You are such a wonderful big brother" I told him.
"I'm a nice big brother because I builded a track for M."
"M, tell C thank you."
"Thank you for doing as Mommy asked and building your sister a track."
"Thank you for luvin' me so much!"
This was one of those times where I just scratched my head, wondering why on earth does this boy love me so? I feel unworthy because I can recall the times (too many) when I have yelled at him when he didn't deserve it, or didn't give him the time he needed because I was too tired. You know. Yet he still loves me, not because I deserve it, not because I've earned it, just because. And I love him and all my children, just because.
As I sit here on this beautiful autumn day, I'm reminded that this is just a glimpse, a tiny one at that, of God's love for me, for you. I've done absolutely nothing to deserve it or earn it. He loves me, just because. Every day I should be raising my hands in praise to my Creator thanking Him for luvin' me so much! He loved me so much that He could not bear and did not give to me what I deserve, and that is death, eternal damnation, separated from Him. He loved me so much, that He gave His Son, Himself, for this bonafide sinner. All I have to do is believe in Him and accept this free gift! Why do we make it so complicated? Because it is too good to be true, isn't it! Thank God it truly is as simple as that :) Wow, that is something truly to just sit back and marvel at.
Thankfully, God gives us earthly examples of many of His promises so that we can understand it a little bit. To think that these earthly examples don't even compare to His love is truly, and wonderfully, amazing.
Yes, God has indeed given us wonderful earthly examples of people loving each other, just because. What a wonderful God I serve!